Obviously so since I never write anything on my blog anymore. It’s not that I’ve forgotten about it, but what do you say when you don’t really have anything to update on? Well I guess I’ll give it a go anyway…
Firstly I’ve not been feeling great these past few months. There were these two college courses that I wanted to do but one was pushed back and then eventually cancelled all together. I know I could do one without the other, but I really wanted to do the other one first. I guess I’m going to just keep looking out for the courses I want to come up, but I feel like maybe I should have at least done one, even if I wasn’t happy… I don’t know. Guess we’ll see what the future holds.
Also there have been a few problems at home. I don’t really want to go into it on a public blog though. A bit too personal for that.
Had a bit of a scare the other day (if you could call it that). Those who know me won’t be surprised to know I take antidepressants. I forgot to get a repeat prescription so for a week I was managing to space out a few. I was doing okay until the night before my next month’s supply and I guess I just kind of lost it emotionally. I’m not good at loving who I am at the best of times but I felt terrible then, worse than I’ve felt in ages. I’ve been back on them for a few days now so I’ve evened out but I wish I hadn’t found out how different I am without them.
I guess things might be finally looking up now but I’m hesitate to get excited about anything in case it’s all over before it’s begun. You know the feeling, you want to let yourself feel happy about something that’s happened, but at the same time you feel if you do you’ll feel worse when you’re disappointed at the end of it – that’s how I feel right now. Hopefully I’m being negative for nothing…
Anyways, this is probably a good time to stop writing before I depress anyone that might bother reading.
Don’t worrying though folks, overall I’m doing just fine.
You could never depress anyone.
And this Christmas will be a great one, I know you don’t want to get your hopes up about certain things but you just have to remeber that I will have bottles of vodka & cheesecake if things go bad. *lol*
As for being a bad blogger, well, that makes two of us and I have people asking for me to update my livejournal and Myspace ones but you know how lazy I can get.
Thank you for being the best sister in the world. *big hugs*
Well, I lernt to be the best from the best.
Big Hugs.
*blushes*